Up all night

I was not able to sleep thinking more and more about who knows what.  Maybe I forgot to take my Ambien.  When did I have to start taking Ambien?   I turned 40 and seems like life is unraveling.  I am hoping for a drama free day but starting off with 3 kids going to skate camp one is always upset.

New to blogging

I am new to blogging but can't seem to sleep and I have no one I can talk to.  I am a mother of 3 kids and married but it seems like I have no soft place to fall when I am down.  My husband travels way to much and I am home carrying the load of all the daily home life and major decisions in my life as well of most of my friends(it seems).  I am a go to gal and I feel like I am barley hanging on.  My kids are taken care of, my husband is taken care of, my friends are taken care of and well me, I am not!! I am not a writer by nature so from time to time I will be ranting and raving about my life and the crazy people in it.

Today is one of those nights where my thought of life are running thru my head.  I am stressed due to the up coming school year.  I applied to put my kids in a new start up charter and had been in the lottery.  My oldest, a 6th grader got accepted about 3 months ago and just a few days ago my 2nd grader got accepted and my 5th grader will stay at her old school.  You may say what is the big deal but this school is 2 and a half days a week of instruction and the rest is homeschooling.  I never thought  I one of those parents that would take on such a task but I am.  I am stressed and full of anxiety if I am doing the right thing.  I try to talk with my husband while he is on the road and all he can say is how stressed he is and really my decision.  Really is it?  I thought I was in a partnership but it seems as though one party has checked out due to work.  That is a whole different story I sure it will get told.

I have not said much but feel a little bit better but I often ponder the question of where is my soft place to fall?